Nothing But Restlessness

Nothing But Restlessness
I can't even be bothered to find an image suitable for the content of this post.

I can’t even be bothered to find an image suitable for the content of this post.

I’m starting to think I spend too much time at home, which is weird because I go to work every weekday, and only get to spend my weekends at home. Some weekends. Other times I have to go out and “do stuff” like grocery shopping or shepherd my daughter to come wacky convention or another.

Last weekend I got restless while at home. I had woken up at my usual time — too damn early o’clock — and went downstairs as I usually do. I don’t know what I had hoped to accomplish, but I managed the dog and sat down at the PC for…some reason.

I usually sit down at the PC or on the couch with the intent to do something, but the closer I get to those seats the more confident I become that there won’t be anything I’m interested in doing.

Late last week I decided that I was done (for now, at least) with Black Desert Online. Another classic case of too much, too soon, because even though I thought I’d actually move my character ahead out of the Velia-Olvia Fiscal Corridor, when I made motions to do exactly that, I found that I didn’t really care to go through with it. I also didn’t want to continue to spend as much time driving a cart or AFK fishing as I had been. Thus ends the long string of BDO related posts. Some will sigh with relief, but I’ll shed a tear for the traffic I’ll be losing as a result.

I also think I’m off The Division for a while. I logged in the other night to join my Usual Xbox Group, only to find them several levels ahead of me, leaving me no option but to strike out on my own. That wasn’t grabbing me either. I’m playing on the PC because we’ve got almost a literal blood pact not to out-level one another, relying on alts and whatnot, but we’ve also got a LAN party coming up at the end of April so I don’t want to make myself puke when I hear the words “The Division”.

So where did that leave me this weekend? Stardew Valley has already been deep-sixed. Thanks to Stargrace and her love of Wurm I installed Wurm Unlimited, cut down a tree, and decided that I wasn’t ready to invest the time in such a lengthy endeavour. I installed Civilization: Beyond Earth and played that for about three hours. I also installed Baldur’s Gate thanks to the notice of the release of the latest expansion some 2,000 years later. I didn’t buy the xpac, but enjoyed stomping around the old Sword Coast for a while. The real trick will be to see if I bother to return to either C:BE or BG at this point. I’ve now gotten Quantum Break (see below), so I’ll be entertained by that for about…as long as I manage to stay entertained. No idea how long that will be.

See, I have this idea in my head that I want something to invest in that would allow me to sit down and put my feet up while I leisurely enjoy my…leisure time. What I think it getting in the way is that A) I don’t have as much leisure time as I would require to get in that groove, and B) I think I’m tired of having all my stuff in the dark basement. It seems to be a kind of seasonal affective disorder. Whereas when I was younger the idea of being in a dark room to cover up all distractions was the ideal situation, now I’m feeling a bit claustrophobic and set-upon. I’ve never been an “outside person”, but I have nothing against the sunlight. I think I actually miss it, which is par for the course living in a place with four seasons.

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